Today was particularly difficult for me. After a 2 hour rest (thanks mom) and an outing I can see a little clearer. It's been 3 weeks since I met Emme in the hotel lobby in Beijing. For 2 weeks she would not walk except in our hotel room. The day we left for home she found her feet and strutted her stuff. The first week in China she had night terrors which she doesn't seem to have now but rather awakenings and as a result meltdowns which seem never ending but are probably less intense. She makes good eye contact, plays games with me and likes to be held. These are all good signs which suggest the attachment process has truly begun. Last night was bad for both of us and today was hard for me. I needed a break so I could regroup. We haven't really gone anywhere in the week we've been home probably out of my fears. Tonight we ended that, took a bath albeit a screaming one and got out of the house. We went to a friend's house for a pizza play date. She screamed the 15 minutes over in her car seat and the first 10 minutes there. Thanks to the husband she relaxed and within minutes was giggling and playing nicely with her play mate. She helped clean up, she shared and had her first taste of pizza. She only cried for a minute in the car seat coming home. So with 5 hours sleep last night and a 2 hour nap today PLUS running around tonight I am hoping she will sleep well tonight. Barring anything unforeseen we have plans to visit her grandpa tomorrow in New Jersey. I haven't taken ANY pictures since we've been home but that will be rectified tomorrow. Please think good thoughts for us tonight so we can start the day fresh tomorrow.